sis n mom went to korea last wk.. shld be coming back tml nite... now i noe how boring it is to be home alone. I admit my schedule isnt changing.. i just basically eat slp rot thru the days whether they are at home nt.. but somehow it just feel different.. feel so restless when the hse is so big n no ppl is at home. This feeling really sucks.

Being spamming resume for the last few days, no reply yet. Hopefully things will be better. I gotta admit.. wq is rite. Its sucky to be stuck on this stage where u are standing btw graduated status n looking for job. Being jobless make me feel lk shiat cos i noe tat it mean i am being stagnant and not moving on. i just so wanna get a job.. start my career and save some money and soon, welcoming my 60th birthday. Ppl keep telling me, economic is gd, why don u get a job? i dnnoe how to reply. yes,economic is gd, but i dn feel that it mean getting job is easy. So many underpaid ppl are willing to work (u noe WHO i mean.) seriously, i dn ask for high pay, but just a job that will allow me to feed myself and of course, learn and improve on the job. IS IT JUST TAT HARD? thinking bout all this stuff just make me feel more and more emo, it really sux.

tml faster come. i wan my mom to come back and i gg to hug her at the airport and tell her. Ma, i no money liao, give me some to go eat maggie goreng leh. hahaha

wa 4 mths no update.. sian i nd a job.. hard to find job..especially after reading how other people gt degree and still cant find a long term job.. this is so demoralizing..

2010 is here. 2009 is gone. i need help. i am dead.

-Life Sux big time -

This is the first time i going to the Natsu Matsuri. My aim is to eat takoyaki and drink japanese beer and at the same time, know some japanese girls. However, ALL THINGS DON'T GOES AS PLAN.

1. area was too pack, u wan buy something to eat, u nd to queue like mad.
2. NO MONEY, COS I SPEND ON ALBIREX ITEM, will be touching on it later and b4 going there.. bough my sis a LIVERPOOL JERSEY from last season for $50 -.-
3. I NEVER KNOW ANY GIRLS, INSTEAD I TOOK PIC WITH SOME BALD JAPANESE GUY, WHICH I REALLY LIKE> OMFG

the experience it self was great.. atmosphere was great.. u are like in some mini japanese place flooded with tourist.. cos.. everywhere u see.. is some chinese or singaporeans. heard from ruka they all that this is the first time tat those soccer players from albirex niigata came to the event and help out. as a soccer fan, of course i was really please to see them.. was thinking that they will be those heck care ppl.. see fan.. don care.. see ppl asking for photography.. don care.. BUT I WAS SO WRONG.. they are such a bunch of friendly and likeable guys.. i ask them for pic.. they agree to it with a big smile.. after taking pic.. they sae thank you to me in jap, chinese, english and yes. KOREAN !

i shld be the one saying thank you.. but it end up become them saying to me.! its was really great to see them in singapore esp, in this event. think it really bring some home feeling to them. brought $30 to the event.. ruka sae the most she spend last yr was $10. oh yea. crap. haven reach there. $5 went to cab. after reach there. $25 go to albirex store. tats it. i am left with $0. in the end.. never eat and drink anything from there. but i don regret buying the towel scarf.... hahaah.. cant forget they expression and the noise they make when i sae i wan the scarf. think it just never cross their mind that some one will buy the scarf.. cos they keep showing me keychain. lol . i sae i wan scarf and they go. WOOOOO... OHHHH... AHHHH... clap clap clap ... a whole load of japanese accent english which i cant understand. hahaha... yea.. i thiink today albirex gt lots of new fan.. ruka ika shiro.. all become albirex fan.. haha.. n IKA FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS NO. 11 .. NAME NAO.. hahahahah,,,,, looking forward to watching albirex match at JE stadium soon.. wooootottttttt....~~

my albirex towel scarf..~~ absolutely love the colour !



pic taken with the players after purchasing the scarf


 
ika and ruka withe players



ruka n ika with the players somemore !


 

Koji Kaneko, the coach.. he gt a shock when i sae i wan take pic with him !.. lol



grp pic !



ika n his fav player. NAO... lol



center stage of the event

 

whoa.. first time going to watch a  S league match LIVE.. and i mean LIVE.. going down to the stadium and watch the match itself..

overall experience : 8.5/10

lol... look like last time secondary school those sport events... u will see people shouting and cheering for the team.. not to forget.. gt CHEER LEADERS cheering.. other than the things happening on the field, u get to see some pretty well chereograph move being dish out !
went to bet $5 on gombak winning the match with a -1.5 handicap.. its really different when u watch the match in person compare to watching it on tv.. u can hear your heart pounding .. you can hear spectators around you hurling vulgarities and comments on the play.. shouting at referees... and of course, those thing that was never caught on tv.. such as the pushing and shoving.. and fights that nearly broke out. Today night match was Gombak Utd vs DPMM Brunei.. good to see both set of cheer leaders shouting and taunting at each other.. lol
Match was great, ended 3-3. what can i ask for? goals? check ! Controvesy? check! last min goal? Check!

what u need in an exciting soccer match , you name it, u will see it in the match today.. really great match... rating for the match : 9.5/10
feel great when the gombak player nearly score.. almost the whole stadium stand up and shout goal.. however he misses.. this is the type of atmosphere that i never expected that i will experience in a local S League match.. after today experience, i promise.. i will go for more of the match.. next up.. Nigiita Albirex, a japanese team against Tampines Rovers ! time to watch some japanese babes !



The team gearing up for the match !




After the match, with gombak players still on the field..




a dejected gombak player leaving the field.. wq clap and he respond to him ! .. lucky brat he is ..




saw the paper shreds on the floor ? no its not junyang bet receipt, its the left over from those poppers they use.. seriously speaking.. the pic doesn't justify the atmosphere and mood there.. anyone who is free.. i recommend u to go down personally to watch the match !
lol.. i think i will support gombak from now on.. lol.. nice play.. not afraid to attack.. and of course.. there is GORAN SUBARA !




finally.. watching sleague make u goes high  !! WOOT!!! 930 am lesson tml and i haven do my tutorial yet !

.. sian.. birthday just passed...i don't know is it because of age or other reason.. birthday just seem like any other days... so normal.. so dull...
finally i am 23.. that is old.. soon i will see 25.. then 28.. then suddenly i will be 30.. this is really scary.

anyway, gt some sushi from ruka. . look cute though.. but after putting it in the fridge for the past 4 days.. its as hard as stone now. lol. think i need to use some hammer and chisel to break the sushi rice down.

School had started for close to a month. Lesson timing wise, its better than i had expected.. repeating a module.. and guess what.. no lecture, no proj due date yet due to H1N1 and the oversea lecturer can't come to singapore hence, no news yet up till now. Went to school for 3 straight days during the first week, and after tat.. 11/2 wk no lesson. Just before i getting into "schooling" mood, i being thrown into another holiday mood. -.- went for HRM lesson.. the lecturer is darn boring.. the notes is empty... and i falling aslp during lesson.. haix.. proj nt yet started yet.. i 'm already having trouble finding grp members. Can life be any worse than this? i think so. lol 

past few week.. being gaming all the way.. play monster hunter like theres no tomorrow. lol. When my psp low batt, i goes to playing final fantasy 8 on my pc, basically been wasting my life and youth away these few weeks. darn sian and sad. HAIZ !

having problem finding bandmates, lol. life is so wonderful, just when u are down, things will happen to make it worse ! i think i reaching core of earth soon if things keep happening like that, WOOT !

what to do what to do what to do what to do ~ fail my ippt , going for rt soon and ict in mid novemeber, time to be a man and serve the country and get my salary from there~ i love my country, i love singapore, but i am half a malaysian, protect singapore i try, take salary i will. woot. . someone save me i am going crazy, i think i need to go back to my pokke village, take up some quest and slay some monster with my pet, oliver in order to unleash my stress......

how does it feel to be disappointed?

now i know hence, i decide to stop bothering issue regarding you. i am tire.

i hate weiqi.. i really don like him.. he is cocky.. like to talk about his past glory.. n he is stuborn.
but i have to confess.. i respect him as a man. . one of the best frend i ever have in my life. no matter wat.. he can tahan my nonsense, listen to my troubles. 90% of the time. when i got trouble, he is the one that can help me and will listen to me. Yes i cant deny , sometime i just feel lk slapping him. but i think i am lucky, to have a friend like him. thank you bro, for listening to me and helping me

i hate junyang, he just cant stop treating me lk a walking sgpool personnel. he just cant stop and think whats going on and he like to talk out of point. he too, is stuborn that sometime i really feel darn irritated when talking to him.
but i have to confess, i respect him. for the way he live his life. Ever so optismistic and carefree.. come what may, and all will be solve when its time to face the problem. i envy and respect him, for he is able to lead his life with such an attitude when the world around us is spinning so fast and time are bad. Thank you junyang for listening to my shiat also, and also helping me with my school works. His temper is good, or rather he chose to ignore, but i think i am lucky, for knowing a person like him.

i hate yap, Yap chun teck, he cant stop thinking out of the box and think things seriously. but i do thank him. for listening to my wannabe dream and advice. pro i may nt be in music, but still he try to listen to me. one of the best thing i ever achieve in playing bass is to know someone like him. without him, think i would have given up on learning bass a long time ago. he has his own troubles, but he never chose to bother me with it, friend i will call him, but brother i will treat him

i hate life. life really sux and i hate myself. for i am useless, fat and ugly. skill in bass is poor and result in studies is low. i hate myself. however, i do treat one aspect of this life with pride. that is to noe the people above and make many real friends through my life. parts and direction they have played, making my life not as miserable and bad it seem. i never fail to ill treat my friends, but i thank them all for tolerating me.

i think the best thing to have happen in this life till now is to have these bunch of friends and my family. for they stand with me through thicks and thins.
the best thing i could ever get is not a psp, a xbox nor a fender bass. but tat special person that take up a big space in my heart. disturb and ill treat her i have, but thank you for tolerating me. i only realize till now that, how impt she is and how gd she is to me. if she is reading. i am thankful to you. time may seem bad, but seeing her is one of the brighter aspect of my life till now. frends, lover, families, without one of them i don think i can live on.
wishful thinking it may be, but for them i will try my best, to live this life and get out of this darkness that seem to be consuming my world, mind and dreams every minutes, for this. i thank they all. for being the pillar of my strength. this, i conclude, is my confession